If Math Has Something To Do With Numerology, I'm Shifting Course

http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp -- In this link is my reference for this whole blog post. Since you all know I'm vain, I'm sure you won't be surprised when I tell you that this one post will be leaning more on a rather beautiful aspect of the world, ME. Before you narcissists object and stop reading this, I'm just kidding okay! Don't worry you're almost as cool as me. Okay, going back! Well, I've always been a fan of destiny, fate, and all that cheesy crap and I think it's somehow related how I also believe in Personality Tests, be it through horoscopes, or simple psychological tests. Bottom line is, I think there really is a certain way for people to determine another's personality without being able to interact with that certain other firsthand. Wow, I think that's a geeky way of saying being judgmental, but whatever.

My interest was caught by this Numerology test which only needs the number of letters in your name to determine your personality. Yes, this application is so judgmental it should be in the Supreme Court. Imagine introducing your name to the creator of this application and consider yourself instantly judged, like you're standing there before his eyes, slowly being ripped of your darkest secrets, naked.

Who care's about this test, you say? I do. Mine's pretty accurate. I dare you to try it! Besides, it doesn't simply give you bullshit every time you try for a new one, it gives you the same result for the same spelling for your name. I'm not sure though if you are to put your complete, complete name with first name, middle name, and surname, but you can try for yourself. I did it with and without my middle name.

More than anything, it gave me the meaning of my name; warning, deep shit coming. My name means Red. It's so deep it can drown an ant.

Seriously now, the key personalities that this application made me realize that was very much like me, were all in the first long paragraph. First, it says that  I have a way of finding out the truth. I seriously do, and I hope you never lie to me, because I know when you lie. Being good at lying myself, I just know it.

Second, I have spiritual inclination. I've been very faithful since I was a kid, and I've been very devoted to my God, more before than now unfortunately. What creeps me out is the "psychic explorations" part. I'm afraid of ghosts okay? Well anyways, if I haven't told you yet, I dream a lot about the future before. I dreamt of my high school classmates when I was in grade school at a different school and things like that. I also heal my own sore throat before just by touching my tonsils. I know it's creepy, don't judge me!

Third, it says that I operate on a different wavelength. Not sure if it's telling me I'm nuts or what, but I think it makes sense. I don't think like most people because I prefer not to. There's no reason why but maybe because I think being mainstream is too mainstream #Whaaat?. In relation to this is the fourth one, my tendency to be too rational. My way of thinking is always leaning towards what's more beneficial to us all. Sometimes, unfortunately, as this app tells us, I lack emotion as a consequence. I laugh a lot, but rare are the ones which I really feel #slashwrist.

Fifth, I'm not sure because it says I have excellent studying capabilities. FRAUD! I almost junked this whole belief on this application, but you cannot overthrow all the goods for just one fault right? I'm kind of hoping this is true though, anyways I've been really studious as a kid. Below a grade of 90 is my grounding call. Wonder where that is now?

Sixth, it says that I have trust issues. I'm not sure about this one because I trust a lot of people. Maybe it's because I'm surrounded with people who really are trust worthy. I love my friends you know? Also as a weak point, it says that I have the tendency to be overly introverted. This is 100 per cent true. I'd give everything for a day at home, even without internet as long as I have my bookshelf. I also don't enjoy parties.

Seventh, it says that word skills are my thing. Someone told me that, but I'm not sure. It's embarrassing to admit, but yeah, it's somewhat what I truly want to be, become an actor. I want to do Theater Arts, sing, act, and all those shit, after I graduate from this course. I don't know why I'm saying this here, it's embarrassing.

Lastly, another fault I have is that I'm too much of an optimist. Lax is my enemy! The reason why I don't believe when it said that I have a thing for studies is because I have very little regards for education. I'm too secured about my future that I tend to think that regardless of the results I get from studying here in Ateneo, something is already waiting for me out there. I know this is wrong, and I'm currently working on removing this negative attitude. But you know, my optimism is what I like best about myself. Nothing can really bring me down. I will bet my winning lottery ticket, after I get one, that I probably have a worse life than you, but you're still sadder than me.

If you look at this closely, my personalities don't really go together; my spirituality and rationality, my being an introvert and my secret passion for acting which will involve crowds and hopefully large audiences, my studying and my not studying. Despite that, here I am telling you that this is all me. I am both one thing and it's opposite. I'm weird, but I'm me.

If I'm really studious then why am I doing this blog instead of my final reflection paper in English, huh Numerology Test, huh?!

Note: Felt lazy to check on my grammar.

If A Zombie Apocalypse Would Come, I'd Be Carrying A Hammer

Well you read the title. As a kid, I've collected monthly issues and issues of the K-zone magazines and I've always been fond of the "Which shit are you.." tests. Where shit is a variable of just about anything, but the popular ones are of which job is more suited for you, mainly with reference to Ragnarok jobs or any other online game. Seriously, there can't be tests which will determine what kind of shit you are. I don't even think there's a variety of it. But if such a test exist, I call dibs on being THE shit. And if there is a test on which weapon is best suited for your personality, I hope mine's a hammer.

To tell you why I wanted a hammer to be my weapon would be pretty hard because I haven't really thought about it either. I mean, there's an Apocalypse for heaven's sake and we realistically would not be choosy now would we? I'd still continue this post however, so lets just imagine that the Apocalypse would be the theme of an online game which is our world #FeelingInception #EwHashtagsAgain. In fact, since I'm still a fan of choosing jobs, let's choose our job. For those who are not familiar with classic online game jobs, we have the Warrior who normally deals the physical damage, the Tank who takes all the damage, the Mage who does the magical (You don't say?) damage and is usually first to die, the Healer who kills his party members, the Thief who actually I'd rather name as Assassin because zombies aren't supposed to have anything worth stealing, anyways Thieves are the agile, stealthy guys, and lastly the Hunters who uses long range attacks. Now, imagine this with me. 

I prefer and will choose to play as the Healer. For starters, I feel really needed; healers are usually sought after. Also, I just find it really cool, the idea that the weak, gentle, lifesaving priest can also be a strong, life-taking killer. Being what others think I'm not or not being what others think I am, that's very much like me. Besides, the Undead are supposed to bow down to my divine holy spells. 

As for the Hammer, it's probably because it's non cliche. People would usually choose something easily lethal like a sword, blade, or whatever. People who are very realistic would just say a gun. But my hammer is not just a carpentry hammer, mind you, imagine Thor's, that's my kind of hammer. Choosing a hammer, I guess would be pretty fun.  There's the thrill of not being able to whack that zombie hard enough and I still get bitten as I walk away. The coolness as I imagine it hanging in my back. Okay whatever, I can't really justify having a hammer and I'd probably die first in this Apocalypse, like it's even real! Get a life! 

Seriously now though, although I think that I'm capable of defending a life for a life, I still think of myself as gentle in general. The blades, the bullets just send me the murderous intent vibes. Also, I love challenges. It would most definitely be hard surviving with a hammer, but I'd be ready to whack the ooze out of those green heads, and I'd be training! If I get to kill zombies, I know it wasn't because of the sharp edges or the penetrating trajectory, it was because I whacked it hard, because of my strength. Something I worked hard for.

Or I could have killed the mob with the Earthquake I caused after hitting the ground with Cheesecake.What, why would I name my hammer, Cheesecake, pschh. -_-.

Which job are you, and what weapon will you yield? Yeah yield.